I regretted not visiting her for the past few months, kept thinking there would always be another day, could pop down anytime with my parents.  We were never really close, but she's my favourite grandaunt.  She even knitted a top for me before.  The past six months were not easy for her, physically and emotionally.  I'm upset with what she had to go through.  She was hospitalised a week before her birthday last December.  The annual celebration was cancelled.  She was physically weak with no other symptoms, so they transferred her to AMK rehab.  Her family did not bother to bring her back home for CNY so we visited her there.  The physio at the rehab was not working as she refused to try, complaining of weakness etc.  In the end, they send her to a nursing home.  I felt that she could have been given better emotional support from her family.  I don't understand why they don't let her go home when she wanted to.  Her daughter gave reasons that she would have given better care at the home, with doctor and nurses around.  Rubbish, how much attention could be given to an old lady when there's so many patients and so few caregivers.  The family is rich, I don't see why they can't hire private nurses.  They did visit her every day, despite their busy schedule, but was that what she wanted?  She wanted to go home, but they said they would bring her home if she would get better, a way to 'motivate' her to get well.  The poor lady was suffering from progressive stroke, getting physically weaker.  There's nothing the doctor could do.  I felt that the lack of love from her own family led to her loss of hope and will in living.  She's just 等死 at the nursing home cos she knew that she would never get better.  Mum told me she was still very alert mentally, but was rapidly deteriorating physically for the past week.  I wanted to visit her coming Sunday, but it's too late.  My only consolation was that she did not suffer for too long and passed on peacefully.

五姑奶奶, I love you and you will always be on my mind.  Rest in peace.

The programme will be similar to the one which we will be performing in Hamamatsu, for the Japan Band Clinic.  Please come and support me!!!  No need to give us your whole day, just give us this evening! 3 May, 730pm!